Baby Lewis

Sunday September 20
The night before I had decided I was going to take a pregnancy test, so when I woke up at 3am and had to go I made myself close my eyes and go back to sleep. So 6am rolls around and I know its time. I do the potty dance as I shimmy off my pants. I unwrap the test and do my thing. The first line is there saying I took the test right. That was a relief. After flushing and going about what you do after you use the bathroom I took a peek at the test"+". What already no way I went and sat on the bed for about 2min. I went back into the bathroom and there it was clear as day PREGNANT! I ran back into the bedroom screaming "BRENT BRENT I AM PREGNANT!" He sat up half asleep and said cool then went back to sleep. I was not happy with this response so I jumped on the bed and started dancing. I told him to come look he said bring it here. I reminded him there is pee on it so he got up looked at the test and smiled. Then we went back to the bed and snuggled. After about 10min of that I was ready to call and tell everyone. Brent said we should wait a while and think of a cool way to do it. Well I couldn't hold it in. I called my mom and 630am and told her, she cried. Then she reminded me that I need to take it easy because there is a chance I may not carry to full term. I knew this was a huge possibility but I was so excited I didn't care. So now a week later I can tell everyone....I AM PREGNANT! I am so excited and happy I don't even know what to say except this is a huge blessing and a miracle and I am enjoying EVERY second of it.

TORN

OK so i have been a mess the past couple of weeks. i am 40 days with out a period. i have not taken a test because i am scared it will say "not pregnant" and i don't want to hear that. i have been tired, have to go to the bathroom alot more, my chest is sensitive, and i have gained some weight. the thing that is throwing me off is i have been having cramps for about three weeks. so last night i could not fall asleep because i kept thinking about a baby, and when i did fall asleep i dreamed i got twin boys. not that i gave birth to them but that we adopted them. so i woke up this morning all excited then i realized it was a dream. i am a mess. i want a baby more than anything but know my chances of ever having one of my own are small. i don't know why i am writing about this, i usually don't tell people my personal problems. i don't know what else to say. i am sad and i think Brent is too but we have both decided that if we are not pregnant with in a year we will adopt so i know someday i WILL have a baby and i will love it more than ANYTHING in this world and i know Brent will be the BEST dad ever. this is what keeps me going.

Jump Start

So I feel like I have been dragging along the past couple of weeks so I have decided to give my self a jump start. I am going to do Jillian Michael's 30 day shred and weight watchers. I think the lack of exercise and eating junk food has made me feel this way. So if anyone wants to join me this could be fun!

Our little Charlie

So I never thought I would be the type of person who treats their pet like a human...Well I thought wrong. Charlie is treated like our child and not just by me, Brent is guilty too. He sleeps in our bed in between us. We hold him like a baby and take pictures of him in the tub. He loves bath time he just does not like getting his face wet.

So this past weekend we went camping with our friends Cody and Mel and their two dogs. It was alot of fun sleeping on the ground and playing with the dogs. Charlie liked to swim in the near by creek. He did not like when Brent took him to the other side and dropped him in so he could swim to me. It was a close call when he went under for a split second both Brent and I were ready to jump in after him. We had alot of fun!